The Love Crimes of Kabul

"I am ready to die
But destiny keeps delaying my death
Even death rejects me now..."
I watched a moving documentary today... The love crimes of Kabul. This is about women who are in prison in Kabul. If half the women there are in jail for wrong doing then the other half are in jail for reasons that I feel are not reasons at all. Adultary, premarital sex, girls who ran away from abusive homes, girls who left their husband and girls who were in jail because they simply just loved.
One of the most astounding cases in this film for me was that of Samaira an 18 year old who was taken to prison from her house while she was sharing a macaroni with her boyfriend. Someone had told on them and although the tests showed that she was a virgin she was still jailed because she was accused of having the INTENTION of sex.

Seriously just when you think you have to go through so much you come across contents like this which makes me sad and grateful at the same time but how long can this go on... We as women if intended to get married to only one person in our life should at least have the right to choose that one person. Its sad that even today there are countries like this which make woman go through so much without thinking what pain it is already for most of these woman to just be born a girl.

Love is a word so hard to deal with anyway and I cannot believe that people have laws to make love seem even more wretched. This is the kind of law that protects the evil that still lurks among us... Punish those who have really committed a crime not those who try to run from a crime being committed to them.

It is so ridiculous how people even defend these things and whats even sad are the people who stand by it. How sad must their lives be ... if one cannot understand the basics of life as in wrong and right... how can that person ever call himself righteous in front of GOD...

Its just a thought and you never know what a silly thought can create.

This is my thought and this is me...

Baggage

Following my previous post and a revelation the day after... I realized how much importance we give to baggage... no matter what it is literally... whether it be emotional or just plain simple baggage...

So how healthy is baggage???

Well I guess that would depend on how healthy you are in the head... hehe... now but really how healthy can a baggage be... We sometimes so easily say that someone is not ready to be in a relationship because he or she has too much emotional baggage... WOW... heavy word there... But don't we all have baggage...

People who are married.... divorced... single or just in a relationship... baggage is something that is and will always remain there so why so we so categorize it in a box that does not do it justice... i think the weird ones would really be the ones without baggage... how sorry would if be if one did not have an experience that would change their perspective of life forever or atleast for awhile... I think that experience is worth the baggage tag...

Anyhoo... people tend to usually tag me with stuff like.. Devdas... intense... crazy... psycho (i get this a lot) but isn't that what life should be like... atleast once I think it should be all of that...

I know m not perfect... but I also know that I am not quite not normal if I wanted a normal like I would rather be born as a dosmestic cat... now that is normal and boring... but we as human beings and the only beings of the race that can think and bring logic has this utter responsibility and excuse to loose it once in a while and just like it up... well to the limit... but sometimes its just cool to be the rebel and just do things the natural way... emote... I mean if you are angry just get angry or happy just be happy without restriction...

Its the best thing about living a human life being able to express and if you supress the express part of your life... you might as well not live it at all...

Just a thought and I think thoughts no matter how random they are... are still very cooll... because you never know what a silly thought could create...


Capiche....

ME!!!!

So its been about 2 months since the last time I updated my blog... I was busy but more than that I think I did not really have a reason to update a blog that had nothing new to say...

But what do you do when the rain stops pouring and you heart stops overflowing tears of anger and anguish... all of a sudden you wake up one morning only to realize that that shooting pain in your heart is no longer there... when your chest all of a sudden seems lighter than ever before only to know that you have been empty... you have been emptied once again so that you can fill it up and again and this time you are to make sure that you fill it up just the right amount.

It amazing how you can for one moment feel like no one can ever hurt the way you are hurting... the pain that excruciating pain that you feel like you would rather die than to feel what is going on inside you because you cannot take it anymore... and just like an angel you meet another person only to realize how lucky you have been only to experience the amount of suffering that you are actually going through...

All of a sudden you feel like what you felt was actually nothing compared to this one person in front of you who had been through so much only to now stand in front of you and greet you like nothing had happened... that show of bravery with that burning pain inside and that safe smile outside makes you feel so small having complained about the shittiest of things in the moment that you have actually been complaining...

In all the 2 months that I stopped writing and just complaining how sad and passive my life is ... I realized in one moment of truth that it was actually nothing NOTHING compared to this person who sat right beside me telling me her story without a wink... just boldly telling me what she had to go through... made me realize what the FUCK was I complaining about...

When I came across the word IRIDESCENT I had unknowingly used it to describe this one certain person and now I realize that I did a wise thing... I have never met anyone who could have personified the word more for me... You have never failed to amaze me at every step of my life... I hope all that you aspire for comes true and I will live long enough to see you accomplish all that you have always wanted to a person like you deserves nothing more than to just be happy and on that note I promise... never to get so drunk that alcohol controls me... I am in control of myself.

I realize now what my purpose in life was and is... I will never stray away from being me and I will never back down on the thoughts in my head because you never know what one silly idea just might create...

In my world there is now no room for sadness or error... This is the only life I have and I will make sure that this life I will lead with my head high... never letting it stoop low or be ashamed of myself...

I am who I am and this is me...